Did you know, I'm a student, I'm also a worker. I work as a freelancer. I work literary at 2 companies. One is education company and now I have a break because of covid-19. Another one is I work as a freelancer for script writer.
I have so much work to do. I'm at my 6th semester of study. I get stuck on two subjects, they are socio linguistics and research methodology. To be honest, I haven't done anything with those two subjects. Yet, those subjects are the most important in this semester because other subjects are just like a business subject and just a minor task. But, I don't know, these two subjects are really really drive me crazy. I'm okay with my work, I can do them on datelines. But I'm not okay with my college task.
Everyday, I stare at my laptop. Everyday, I type words on my script but not for the task. You know, I get stuck! I can't think anything.
My place for working all these is not comfortable at all. My body keeps bent down because I don't have a proper study desk. So, I have to sit down on the floor and just using my wooden little table.
My eyes getting burning all the time. I don't use anti radiation glasses so I use my transparent folder to reduce the brightness from the laptop. My shoulders are getting weak. I have so much pain in my back knee. I bought so many medicine to cure my aching body such as salonpas, hot in cream, counterpain, voltaren, freshcare, and others.
I have so much pain inside my body. Not my body actually, but my problem occurs in my joints and my muscles. But that really give me so much burden and huge impact that I can't sleep normally. I spend lots of time for lying on my bed. I get headache also and sometimes my throat is getting trouble because of my bad drink habit. I mean I drink lots of sweet taste like coke or instant milk. I don't know, but this is my way for not getting into stress and frustrated of it.
I swear, if getting drunk, smoking, tattooing or piercing are good things to do. I will probably have done it. But, you know, I'm a woman and I'm a muslim. So many barriers that I have to face with. So, I think eating lots of junk food and junk drink is the best way to wreak all of my life obstacles.
No, no..
I hope I could pass my life problem here. I have to battle with those two subjects. I have to kill my metopen class and socio linguistics class. I need spirit. I need my spirit. I need my brave and my motivation to do. I can't be beaten by them, I will beat them instead. Yeah, I never give up. I wish next semester is my last semester of college. I'm almost done with college. I'm can't be calm down anymore.
Okay, thank you.
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