Feeling empty

Guys, it's 1 a.m. now and I feel so bad. These days, I feel so empty. Like, I don't have spirit to living my life. I need someone to talk to but I don't have. I need a day or some days where I can enjoy myself and set a bit of quality time with myself. I need holiday but not just a weekend. I don't have a boyfriend yet maybe that's why I feel so empty? But I'm not ready yet to face all the challenges when I already have a new beau. Huft. Life is complicated. No, I'm making it complicated like a gacha.

Dear God, I want to give a little appreciation to myself but I don't know what is it. A boyfriend, a holiday, or just a day of being a lazy person at home?